“We have emphasized willingness as being indispensable. Are we now ready to let God remove from us all the things which we have admitted are objectionable? Can He now take them all, everyone? If we still cling to something we will not let go, we ask God to help us be willing.” A.A. Big Book p.76
Wow! What a tall order for a woman like me. How do I accomplish such a task?
Thank God the Steps are in order for a reason. Steps 1 – 3 were about my acceptance and belief. Steps 4 & 5 were about the discovery of the trend in my character defects. Now, in Step 6 – I have become “entirely willing” to have a God, of my understanding, help me to be rid of them entirely.
Really? How does this work in my crazy mind? My experience is I had to take a look at what was driving my character defects? Why was I angry? Why was I judging the people around me? Why was I envious of my friends? Why did I want what others had to make me happy? For me, at the end of the day, it all came down to fear. I was an insecure little girl, scared to do life. Once I realized the root of my character defects, it was recommended to me, by my sponsor, that every morning when I wake up I should ask myself this question…. Am I Ready To Do Business Today? Am I ready to be “entirely willing” to have God, as I understand him, remove all my character defects? Thank God for me this is progress not perfection.
With this in mind, I believe I have two choices today:
1). To actively seek and practice in a new way of living and thinking or 2). To wait until I am in so much pain that the choice becomes obvious, and then choose to participate only enough to get the pain to stop for a while. I have had experience with both.
Today and on the days that I choose #1, something amazing happens! I am able to get quite, invite God into my day, ask him to remove my character defects, and for me to stay out of the way. Then, I get to enjoy a happy, joyous, and free day!
I am grateful that I can choose to take the best possible attitude each day towards becoming a better me. Step 6 is a lifetime job and I have the opportunity each day to work towards the woman God wants me to be.
My Heart Is Smiling today and I owe it all to God, the Steps of AA, and amazing sponsorship. I am truly blessed to have a super Awesome life!
So, What Step 6 is to me? It is the AA Spiritual Key – The Key to Willingness!
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Much Love, Kimmi S